Okay hey ya'll
This is the deal; I have had correctional lenses sense I was in 2nd grade... (That’s how long I have known that I was blind!) Currently, I am legally blind, way off the 20/20 chart; my glasses that are supposed to be featherweights are coke bottles. Here is the deal. I am sick of being blind. I am asking for people to pray for my sight to be totally restored. Jesus has done it before. I really want him to receive glory, and would be willing to let my blindness be a tool for his glory!
Please pray for revelation of strongholds, curses, or anything that is keeping me from total healing.
Thanks.
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Thursday, February 17, 2005
its just about today :)
So today I have been really tired! During lunch I was kind of sitting and staring. So I went back to my room to sleep but ended up talking to my roomies, it was cool. I had to go to class 30 minutes later, didn't want to go, and ended up falling asleep in class anyway. It was kind of pointless that I went.
I think that this all contributed to this morning. We learned how to develop film in creative Photography. It’s hard. We had to put the film on these metal reels perfectly, but in Pitch-black darkness, and in this tiny bathroom stall-sized room. I seriously felt like Helen Keller. I was so nervous, and there are four rooms, so I wanted to hurry, and that never helps. Then when I was out of that room I had to add chemicals to this canister (which was holding the film) after agitating it for 6 minutes, I couldn't get the top open to pour out the first chemical, meaning I was over developing the film. I was so anxious. It wouldn't open. A few guys in the class tried to open it and they couldn't. I had to finally bang it on the table. There were quite a few that were over developed, but they still kind of turned out, and today WAS the first day so it was a good practice for me.
Lets see how the prints turn out! :)
I think that this all contributed to this morning. We learned how to develop film in creative Photography. It’s hard. We had to put the film on these metal reels perfectly, but in Pitch-black darkness, and in this tiny bathroom stall-sized room. I seriously felt like Helen Keller. I was so nervous, and there are four rooms, so I wanted to hurry, and that never helps. Then when I was out of that room I had to add chemicals to this canister (which was holding the film) after agitating it for 6 minutes, I couldn't get the top open to pour out the first chemical, meaning I was over developing the film. I was so anxious. It wouldn't open. A few guys in the class tried to open it and they couldn't. I had to finally bang it on the table. There were quite a few that were over developed, but they still kind of turned out, and today WAS the first day so it was a good practice for me.
Lets see how the prints turn out! :)
Thursday, February 10, 2005
God rocks.
Yay i registered for the ONEthing confence in Laguna Niguel. i am so excited! dude if any of you are free Feb 18th through the 20th go to www.onethingglobal.com only $25 until the 11th. then $35 after that. dude Jason Upton is leading worship.
anyway, humm... okay so what is new:
oh yeah wow the Lord has totally blessed me. Packed down, shaken together, and overflowing. I just got an iBook G4 and a scanner/printer was thrown into it for only $26 extra. My way cool friend Sharon has blessed me with photography supplies for my photography class. My Dad is letting me borrow his manual camer for the class, and then my sister and i bought Adobe Creative Suite for only $400 on ebay (spliting the cost made it $200). Okay so this is FREAKIN' AWESOME!!! wow i just praise God. seriously this is not of me or of the natural. God just ROCKS (my face off).
Oh yeah and today God gave me a free Mr. Pibb at McDonalds. :)
Okay so there is more to the story than just this. Last semester i believe it was in November, i didn't get my allowance for that month (sence i don't have a job i need a little to get by). Anyway, i felt like i wasn't sposed to call my dad and ask him for the money. i realized that God was teaching me humility through the need (I think i realized this after talking to Stephen and Krisann). Anyway, that month i only had about $19 in my bank account. i had to rely on God and go to my friends with my need. an example is if i went to In&Out i had to ask some one to pay for me, or if i was going to buy something for someone, i had to have them give me the money right away, i couldn't buy it for them and have them pay me back. i Also had to accept money when people gave it to me. It was like He wanted me in a state of need.
i believe that Stephen talked to Krisann who had a word for me. she said that the $19 was to be used for someone else and not me. technically then i really had zero in the bank if I couldn't use that money for me. Saddly i am not sure if i used it for the Lord before the new month came when i got my allowance, but i did keep my eye out. Anyway, Krisann also said that in the next year (2005) God was going to bless me 2 times (I'm not sure if that is the correct number) as much as i tythed. Look! i am overflowing with the Lord's blessings!
Again it is not me, it is all Him. HE is freakin' Amazing. ::Oh thank you Lord!::
anyway, humm... okay so what is new:
oh yeah wow the Lord has totally blessed me. Packed down, shaken together, and overflowing. I just got an iBook G4 and a scanner/printer was thrown into it for only $26 extra. My way cool friend Sharon has blessed me with photography supplies for my photography class. My Dad is letting me borrow his manual camer for the class, and then my sister and i bought Adobe Creative Suite for only $400 on ebay (spliting the cost made it $200). Okay so this is FREAKIN' AWESOME!!! wow i just praise God. seriously this is not of me or of the natural. God just ROCKS (my face off).
Oh yeah and today God gave me a free Mr. Pibb at McDonalds. :)
Okay so there is more to the story than just this. Last semester i believe it was in November, i didn't get my allowance for that month (sence i don't have a job i need a little to get by). Anyway, i felt like i wasn't sposed to call my dad and ask him for the money. i realized that God was teaching me humility through the need (I think i realized this after talking to Stephen and Krisann). Anyway, that month i only had about $19 in my bank account. i had to rely on God and go to my friends with my need. an example is if i went to In&Out i had to ask some one to pay for me, or if i was going to buy something for someone, i had to have them give me the money right away, i couldn't buy it for them and have them pay me back. i Also had to accept money when people gave it to me. It was like He wanted me in a state of need.
i believe that Stephen talked to Krisann who had a word for me. she said that the $19 was to be used for someone else and not me. technically then i really had zero in the bank if I couldn't use that money for me. Saddly i am not sure if i used it for the Lord before the new month came when i got my allowance, but i did keep my eye out. Anyway, Krisann also said that in the next year (2005) God was going to bless me 2 times (I'm not sure if that is the correct number) as much as i tythed. Look! i am overflowing with the Lord's blessings!
Again it is not me, it is all Him. HE is freakin' Amazing. ::Oh thank you Lord!::
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Mwahaha!
Ahhh....a fresh blog to introduce to the wonders of guest posting. Mwahaha!!!
(this is Stephen)
Uhhhh....that's all, I guess.
(this is Stephen)
Uhhhh....that's all, I guess.
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Paso
Okay! So I went to Paso last weekend, to visit my friend Stephen from Fullerton. It took me about 4 hours to get there. It looks like happy cow country. Good cheese does come from happy cows in California!
When I got there I was warmly welcomed by Stephen and all his friends! Let’s see later we went out witnessing. Stephen’s sister Sarah, a girl named Stephanie, and I went up to these two ladies who could barley speak English and were Jehovah’s witnesses. It went pretty well. It mostly consisted of them trying to explain to us that Jesus was not God only the son of God, and us trying to explain the opposite. It was still cool though because we stepped out, the ladies thought that it was neat too. Maybe just the fact that we stepped out was a witness enough.
Later Sarah, Julieanne (Stephen’s other sister) and I went looking around for these two other ladies which God laid on Julieanne’s heart. God ended up leading us to a building that He wanted us to pray for. We walked by it and Julieanne said “oh I feel like we should pray for this building” come to find out, it was a saloon.
Let’s see, fast forward a bit. Later that night we went to their youth service called TAG (the awakening generation) it was so awesome. See they don’t have a TAG worship band; instead they just play worship music on a CD player. To one it may seem plain, but oh my goodness! It was so cool; there was just this spirit of worship there. I felt so free to let go and just worship God in dance. See at Christmas conference, I so wanted to dance, they even had and area for that, but I just couldn’t. I should have been bolder about it. Anyway, Stephen’s church just had a different atmosphere to it. (I’ll share more about that later)
Let’s see Sunday I went to their regular church service, then to Stephen's friend’s house! We had an awesome Italian dinner! Then later MORE Worship!
It was so cool, see it wasn’t just the normal "I am going to worship and feel warm fuzzes." No it was more intimate than that. God was speaking to me; he wanted to know how I felt. I love that about God, even though he already knows what is wrong, he still wants to hear it. He just asked me “what’s wrong?” and then asked “why?” and then He showed me things and taught me. One thing that he said to me was “keep looking at me, just keep looking at me, don’t look anywhere else, just at me.” In my worship I just kept looking up at his face, I could sense him smiling back down at me.
That is how I want my life to be, always looking at him. It is so easy to look up to other people in that way, especially if it is a boyfriend or a girlfriend. So easily we put them in the role as God, a burden way to heavy for them to carry. Recently I realized that I used to do this to my ex-boyfriend, Mark. I expected so much from him. I put him first in my life, and tried to fit him into that God-shaped hole. Oh I was a Christian at the time with strong morals and beliefs and he was too (we both still are), but behind all the Christian camouflage I couldn’t see that I was trying to put Mark right up there on the throne with God. It can still happen to me, and I see it happening to many women, and men too. It is important to realize that the natural has the physical eyes to see, and doesn’t take as much faith to see as the supernatural.
When I got there I was warmly welcomed by Stephen and all his friends! Let’s see later we went out witnessing. Stephen’s sister Sarah, a girl named Stephanie, and I went up to these two ladies who could barley speak English and were Jehovah’s witnesses. It went pretty well. It mostly consisted of them trying to explain to us that Jesus was not God only the son of God, and us trying to explain the opposite. It was still cool though because we stepped out, the ladies thought that it was neat too. Maybe just the fact that we stepped out was a witness enough.
Later Sarah, Julieanne (Stephen’s other sister) and I went looking around for these two other ladies which God laid on Julieanne’s heart. God ended up leading us to a building that He wanted us to pray for. We walked by it and Julieanne said “oh I feel like we should pray for this building” come to find out, it was a saloon.
Let’s see, fast forward a bit. Later that night we went to their youth service called TAG (the awakening generation) it was so awesome. See they don’t have a TAG worship band; instead they just play worship music on a CD player. To one it may seem plain, but oh my goodness! It was so cool; there was just this spirit of worship there. I felt so free to let go and just worship God in dance. See at Christmas conference, I so wanted to dance, they even had and area for that, but I just couldn’t. I should have been bolder about it. Anyway, Stephen’s church just had a different atmosphere to it. (I’ll share more about that later)
Let’s see Sunday I went to their regular church service, then to Stephen's friend’s house! We had an awesome Italian dinner! Then later MORE Worship!
It was so cool, see it wasn’t just the normal "I am going to worship and feel warm fuzzes." No it was more intimate than that. God was speaking to me; he wanted to know how I felt. I love that about God, even though he already knows what is wrong, he still wants to hear it. He just asked me “what’s wrong?” and then asked “why?” and then He showed me things and taught me. One thing that he said to me was “keep looking at me, just keep looking at me, don’t look anywhere else, just at me.” In my worship I just kept looking up at his face, I could sense him smiling back down at me.
That is how I want my life to be, always looking at him. It is so easy to look up to other people in that way, especially if it is a boyfriend or a girlfriend. So easily we put them in the role as God, a burden way to heavy for them to carry. Recently I realized that I used to do this to my ex-boyfriend, Mark. I expected so much from him. I put him first in my life, and tried to fit him into that God-shaped hole. Oh I was a Christian at the time with strong morals and beliefs and he was too (we both still are), but behind all the Christian camouflage I couldn’t see that I was trying to put Mark right up there on the throne with God. It can still happen to me, and I see it happening to many women, and men too. It is important to realize that the natural has the physical eyes to see, and doesn’t take as much faith to see as the supernatural.
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