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hey i posted!

This weekend was way cool!

first on Friday i went ot the health center and got more meds :/ then did homework (this is not the cool part)
later that night my way cool friend Melissa gave me a brand new pair of tap shoes! oh my gosh! I asked, "what!? why!?"she replied, "just because!" wowwie i still can't believe it! they are so awesome! they fit perfectly! oh I love them!

Right after that Eleanor, my friends Caroline and Michelle Clark, and I snuck down to the lobby to where our friend Michelle Ryan was and pretended that she didn't notice, and jumped out and shouted "surprise!!!" and gave her the card that Caroline and i made (its all japaneese cause i went there last summer, and Caroline LIVED there -so she put michelle's name on it in japaneese)

Then Eleanor and i ran over to the dance room and tap danced for 15 minutes. Oh my goodnees! I was soo tired after that, freekin' awesome work out!

Then Saturday, AJ, Doug, and I went to an amazing senior recital for my friends Shaun and Kelsey. all I can say is "train."

Afterwords, AJ, Cormack, Tim, Jimmy, Rae, Eleanor, Doug and I went to Redlands (909!) to see AJ's brother, Mark, in Pollyanna! it was pretty cool. we had dinner at AJ's house, and His mom showed us AJ's preschool pictures, AJ was lucky that she didn't get the baby pictures out. There's always next time! MWAHAHA!

After the play we all went to Starbucks and walked through beautiful down town Redlands and played Hudi! a japanees arm game.. Cormack won! funny thing though he doesn't like the game.. interesting.

then I went to my house while everyone went back to fullerton. I stayed up talking to my mommy about stuff God wa doing in both our lives. then i went to sleep. the next morning she was sposed to wake me up at 7:30 but she didn't so i woke to my alarm at 7:45 and found out that our brunch plans had been canceled (we were going to go to church at 9am then have brunch with some people) so i suggested that we go to a different church (The Rock Church and World Outreach Center). it was cool, the pastors message was exactly about what my mom and i were talking about the night before! God is so awesome!

After church mom and i met Elery at applebee's! i had steak and shrimp.. yumm! I don't ever get to see my step-dad as much as i see my mom, so i was really glad that i got to hang out with him and talk. I even got to drive home with hum so i got some more quality time in with him :D

then at home i showed them my tap shoes.

then i packed up and left. My mom and Elery prayed over me before i left. that was such a blessing. Instead of driving strait to fullerton, i went to chuch. It was the last sermon for our 3 month series "Family feul for the nation" that was a good series. I cam eabout 45 min to an hour late but the lord really spoke to me. Afterwords i was stressed about summer stuff and started talking to a girl about it. but just when i was sort of pouring my heart out, her husband wanted to leave. i told her i would call her, but i didn't. I don't know, i mean i understand that she wants to honor her husband, but why couldn't she ask him is he could wait a few minutes longer? I would think he would understand if he new she was ministering to someone. anyway, i went back to school, and sat in the car. then the lord blessed me with a phone call with my sister. that was a blessing, she prayed for me and helped me to believe that the Lord can get me through this pre-summer stuggle. I know he will be there and i choose to trust him.

then later that night i went with stephen to kinkos. wow! that took about almost an hour! there was a guy there that called the clerk a bad name so the clerk cusse him out so the costomer called the police. we just sat there, but after our wait I got my four coppies for free! :)

then i grabed del taco, ate, played on the computer, mounted. then slept. woke up went back to sleep and had a dream that AJ and tim were in a car with U2. i was flying a popellered plane taking photographs of the ocean with my teacher when i saw them! i freaked out, landed the plane, but by the time i got to them AJ and bono had left! boo! but i got to hang out with "the edge" and the others and boy they looked really old. like one of them (maybe the edge - not sure) had age spots all over his face eww!

then i woke up 56 min before class got ready, went to class, my friend bought me some black paper and coffee. that was so nice. i then finished mounting, packed, and ate lunch. i rushed to class with my designs and photography stuff (because i was meeting with my friend sharon to do some photo stuff) and found class to be canceled! yesssss! i went back to the dorms, study some stuff and met with Sharron early. we went to the arboretum and she took pictures of me with mud over my eyes. good stuff can;t wait to see it!

After that, Julie, my sister came over. we walked to this mexican food place that was really good, then organized my side of the dorm room, and then she left. that was fun, and we got it all done :D later i found some cd's that i owed Stephen and then did more homework outside with AJ. we shot people while we were sitting there, and got shot a few times our selves by albert and his cool sounding wepons (he has good sound effects). then eleanor tried to attack us but we got her with our L's and machine guns. -if that didn't do it then i know my gernade did.

well thats a lot! it was harder for me to not to go into anymore detail. i like explaining things! sheese!

Freedom

I have found freedom in your arms
Since you have taken me and lead me to your ways
I, like Gomer, have run from my true love
And have chased after what I cannot find
But you have rescued me from this adulterous shame
You have cleansed me and clothed me
I have be betrothed to you in your righteousness and compassion
And in your justice and love
Cleansed and anointed, I stand before your throne
Stretch out your scepter and may your eyes that burn with love fall upon me
I smell your fragrance that fills this throne room
Breathing in your beauty my heart melts once again
Acquire it, as it is yours

"we believe"

This is a song by Vineyard that God has been ministering to me with. its the Apostle’s Creed with a chorus added in.

We believe in God the Father
Almighty Maker of the heavens and the earth
And in Jesus Christ His Son
Who was conceived by the Holy Spirit
And then given birth
We believe, we believe
We believe, we believe
We believe

He was born of the Virgin Mary
He suffered under Pontius Pilate
He was crucified and dead and buried
He descended to the depths of hell
And then He rose again
We believe, we believe
We believe, we believe
We believe

We believe He sends His Spirit
On His church with grace and power
We believe He pours His Spirit
On His church this final hour

He ascended to the highest heavens
And is seated at the right hand of God
He will come again to judge the living,
Yes, He will come again and judge the living
And to judge the dead
We believe, we believe,
We believe, we believe
We believe

We believe in the Holy Spirit
We believe in the Holy Christian Church
We believe in the communion of saints
We believe in the forgiveness of sins
And the resurrection
We believe, we believe
We believe, we believe
We believe

We believe He sends His Spirit
On His church with grace and power
We believe He pours His Spirit
On His church this final hour

Copyright © 1996 Mercy/Vineyard Publishing. All rights reserved. International copyright secured.

Additional spontaneous lyrics:
We believe, we believe
We believe, we believe
We believe
Your people now sing ...
We believe, we believe
Oh yes, we believe, Lord
We believe in Your Spirit’s power
The power to change our lives
The power to change, to change the nations, to change the world
To change the hearts of kings, to change the hearts of men
of every tribe and nation, every language Lord,
We believe, oh Lord, we belive, ...
One holy church, oh yes, we belive, ...
The communion of saints, the forgiveness of sins
We believe ...
And we believe that You are coming again
Oh yes we believe ...
Hear our song, we believe ..

Sight restored

Okay hey ya'll
This is the deal; I have had correctional lenses sense I was in 2nd grade... (That’s how long I have known that I was blind!) Currently, I am legally blind, way off the 20/20 chart; my glasses that are supposed to be featherweights are coke bottles. Here is the deal. I am sick of being blind. I am asking for people to pray for my sight to be totally restored. Jesus has done it before. I really want him to receive glory, and would be willing to let my blindness be a tool for his glory!
Please pray for revelation of strongholds, curses, or anything that is keeping me from total healing.
Thanks.

its just about today :)

So today I have been really tired! During lunch I was kind of sitting and staring. So I went back to my room to sleep but ended up talking to my roomies, it was cool. I had to go to class 30 minutes later, didn't want to go, and ended up falling asleep in class anyway. It was kind of pointless that I went.

I think that this all contributed to this morning. We learned how to develop film in creative Photography. It’s hard. We had to put the film on these metal reels perfectly, but in Pitch-black darkness, and in this tiny bathroom stall-sized room. I seriously felt like Helen Keller. I was so nervous, and there are four rooms, so I wanted to hurry, and that never helps. Then when I was out of that room I had to add chemicals to this canister (which was holding the film) after agitating it for 6 minutes, I couldn't get the top open to pour out the first chemical, meaning I was over developing the film. I was so anxious. It wouldn't open. A few guys in the class tried to open it and they couldn't. I had to finally bang it on the table. There were quite a few that were over developed, but they still kind of turned out, and today WAS the first day so it was a good practice for me.

Lets see how the prints turn out! :)

God rocks.

Yay i registered for the ONEthing confence in Laguna Niguel. i am so excited! dude if any of you are free Feb 18th through the 20th go to www.onethingglobal.com only $25 until the 11th. then $35 after that. dude Jason Upton is leading worship.

anyway, humm... okay so what is new:
oh yeah wow the Lord has totally blessed me. Packed down, shaken together, and overflowing. I just got an iBook G4 and a scanner/printer was thrown into it for only $26 extra. My way cool friend Sharon has blessed me with photography supplies for my photography class. My Dad is letting me borrow his manual camer for the class, and then my sister and i bought Adobe Creative Suite for only $400 on ebay (spliting the cost made it $200). Okay so this is FREAKIN' AWESOME!!! wow i just praise God. seriously this is not of me or of the natural. God just ROCKS (my face off).

Oh yeah and today God gave me a free Mr. Pibb at McDonalds. :)

Okay so there is more to the story than just this. Last semester i believe it was in November, i didn't get my allowance for that month (sence i don't have a job i need a little to get by). Anyway, i felt like i wasn't sposed to call my dad and ask him for the money. i realized that God was teaching me humility through the need (I think i realized this after talking to Stephen and Krisann). Anyway, that month i only had about $19 in my bank account. i had to rely on God and go to my friends with my need. an example is if i went to In&Out i had to ask some one to pay for me, or if i was going to buy something for someone, i had to have them give me the money right away, i couldn't buy it for them and have them pay me back. i Also had to accept money when people gave it to me. It was like He wanted me in a state of need.

i believe that Stephen talked to Krisann who had a word for me. she said that the $19 was to be used for someone else and not me. technically then i really had zero in the bank if I couldn't use that money for me. Saddly i am not sure if i used it for the Lord before the new month came when i got my allowance, but i did keep my eye out. Anyway, Krisann also said that in the next year (2005) God was going to bless me 2 times (I'm not sure if that is the correct number) as much as i tythed. Look! i am overflowing with the Lord's blessings!

Again it is not me, it is all Him. HE is freakin' Amazing. ::Oh thank you Lord!::

Mwahaha!

Ahhh....a fresh blog to introduce to the wonders of guest posting. Mwahaha!!!

(this is Stephen)

Uhhhh....that's all, I guess.

thats me!

Paso

Okay! So I went to Paso last weekend, to visit my friend Stephen from Fullerton. It took me about 4 hours to get there. It looks like happy cow country. Good cheese does come from happy cows in California!

When I got there I was warmly welcomed by Stephen and all his friends! Let’s see later we went out witnessing. Stephen’s sister Sarah, a girl named Stephanie, and I went up to these two ladies who could barley speak English and were Jehovah’s witnesses. It went pretty well. It mostly consisted of them trying to explain to us that Jesus was not God only the son of God, and us trying to explain the opposite. It was still cool though because we stepped out, the ladies thought that it was neat too. Maybe just the fact that we stepped out was a witness enough.

Later Sarah, Julieanne (Stephen’s other sister) and I went looking around for these two other ladies which God laid on Julieanne’s heart. God ended up leading us to a building that He wanted us to pray for. We walked by it and Julieanne said “oh I feel like we should pray for this building” come to find out, it was a saloon.

Let’s see, fast forward a bit. Later that night we went to their youth service called TAG (the awakening generation) it was so awesome. See they don’t have a TAG worship band; instead they just play worship music on a CD player. To one it may seem plain, but oh my goodness! It was so cool; there was just this spirit of worship there. I felt so free to let go and just worship God in dance. See at Christmas conference, I so wanted to dance, they even had and area for that, but I just couldn’t. I should have been bolder about it. Anyway, Stephen’s church just had a different atmosphere to it. (I’ll share more about that later)

Let’s see Sunday I went to their regular church service, then to Stephen's friend’s house! We had an awesome Italian dinner! Then later MORE Worship!

It was so cool, see it wasn’t just the normal "I am going to worship and feel warm fuzzes." No it was more intimate than that. God was speaking to me; he wanted to know how I felt. I love that about God, even though he already knows what is wrong, he still wants to hear it. He just asked me “what’s wrong?” and then asked “why?” and then He showed me things and taught me. One thing that he said to me was “keep looking at me, just keep looking at me, don’t look anywhere else, just at me.” In my worship I just kept looking up at his face, I could sense him smiling back down at me.

That is how I want my life to be, always looking at him. It is so easy to look up to other people in that way, especially if it is a boyfriend or a girlfriend. So easily we put them in the role as God, a burden way to heavy for them to carry. Recently I realized that I used to do this to my ex-boyfriend, Mark. I expected so much from him. I put him first in my life, and tried to fit him into that God-shaped hole. Oh I was a Christian at the time with strong morals and beliefs and he was too (we both still are), but behind all the Christian camouflage I couldn’t see that I was trying to put Mark right up there on the throne with God. It can still happen to me, and I see it happening to many women, and men too. It is important to realize that the natural has the physical eyes to see, and doesn’t take as much faith to see as the supernatural.